Tuesday, May 11, 2010

We'll just have Christmas this December

I miscarried. Last Thursday I went to my regular 10 week OB check-up and they couldn't find a heartbeat so they did an ultrasound and said the baby's heart had stopped beating 2 weeks ago. On Friday I went in and had a D&C. I have never been more devastated in my life. This is my second miscarriage this year (I miscarried at 6 weeks in Feb) and I am almost afraid to try and get pregnant again. There is nothing more in this world that I want right now then more children. That being said, I know this happened for a reason and we are trying our hardest to get passed this and move on. I am just trying to keep myself busy as much as possible and not think about no longer having a baby inside of me.

I know you aren't supposed to announce you're pregnant until 12 weeks for this very reason but I am so glad I told everyone early because the support of everyone that knew over this past week has been overwhelming. I have gotten so many emails, phone calls and Facebook messages and it has made me feel so loved and is definitely helping me get through this. I love that I have so many people to be able to talk to when I am feeling down. So thank you everybody.

I am also so grateful that I have this little guy around. I'll take a dozen more please.


deveney said...

oh tracy, i am so sorry! i can imagine how hard this is for you...good job on trying to be positive-keep trying! love you and am excited to see you in july:)

Emily said...

I am so sorry, what a painful experience. My heart feels for you.

meli said...

I'm so sorry for your family! I can't imagine how difficult this must be for y'all. If you need anything at all, please let me know! Graham will have plenty of brothers and sisters to terrorize-I just know it! : )

Amanda Wallace said...

elliot sent me this pic via text and i honestly couldnt tell graham was a life form.


ughhhh. love him.

Megan said...

Trace, I'm so sorry. I'll give you a call later this week.

Loren & Autumn said...

I can only imagine how difficult that would be. You do a really great job at being positive though. Lots of love!